Awareness Article #12

Sai Krishna Leela

"I am unable to bear the separation from Swami and am crying continuously."

26 April 2013 Eveningmeditation

Vasantha:Swami, Swami!My Prabhu!

Swami:Do not cry, come, tell Me?

Vasantha:Swami, Rama separated from His wife and children for twelve years only.

You separated from the children and I from 1961! This is 52 years! Shall I

wait another fifty years?

Swami:Do not cry, sure I will come.

Vasantha:Has this happened in any place or any age before?

Swami:Do not cry, you are My devi. Sure I will come. I will write this. It is

through your tender feelings your body also becomes very soft. The two

things that have caused Me to suffer all these years are My separation

from you and the tears you cry. When I see you, I will run and hold you,

bathing you in My tears. Yet, I am afraid that nothing should happen to

your body at that time.

Vasantha:Swami, I cannot bear Your love.

Swami:Your body is so soft, if there is any pressure you are affected. So, I will be

very careful when I touch you.

End of meditation

Now let us see about this.No matter howmuch I write, I continue to cry in

separation from Swami. This is the reason why my body has been affected more. Rama

sent pregnant Sita to the forest. When her sons Lava andKushawere born, the three

stayed in theashram of Sage Valmiki. It was only after 12 years that Rama saw Sita

again and His children for the first time. Swami separated from us 52 years ago. He has

also not revealed who I am. It is for this I asked him, “How long must I wait?” Thinking

about this more,I cried and cried. This situation has never happened to any one in any

of the previous ages. Inanswer to the tears that I am crying, Swami said that when

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    see each other for the first time, He will take hold of my hand and lead me to the house.

Swami added that He is afraid now, as when He holds me, my tender body will not be

able to bear His touch. It is in this way Swami shows His love. No other form of God has

ever shown love in this way openly. Swami does all in this way for the Avataric task. No

other incarnation has spoken as He has. The other Avatars were only in theWitness

state. This Avatarcame to show His feelings. The feelings of Swami and I go out and

change the world.

Swami gave a piece woven cloth with some writing on. Let us see:

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It would be

Myvergepromise to you

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Then,SVin the form of arose.

I am always yearning that Vaikunta descend to earth.18 dindicates this.Now, at

the time when all is finishing,Swami gives this promise to me. The entire world

becomes a beautiful flower garden;where all areSandVroses. This is the promise that

Swami gives.

There were also some musical notes on the cloth. Thus, in Sathya Yuga all

becomes sweet music. Swami has given His promise. As I was crying more on that day,

my eyes were affected.

29 April 2013 Eveningmeditation

Vasantha:Swami, nothingshould happen to my eyes...it is okay if the body suffers.

Swami:When you write, do it slowly, little by little. You write continuously and

then read what you have written, while carrying on with other tasks. This

is why it happened.

Vasantha:I willnot do like this anymore. Nothing should happen to my eyes and

mind.

Swami:I promise. Nothing will affect your eyes or mind.

End of meditation

In last night’s post, Swami drew two eyes and a letterV. When I asked Swami, He

said, “I have showed this to prove that nothing will happen to you.”

Swami indicated many things in the book ‘Parabhakthi’from the post on 30

April. On page 62, He wrote in Marathi, ‘Sai KrishnaLeela’.Then on page 63, He

wroteBHand drew the form of an eye. Let us see what is written in the text on that

page. Here Swami tells that after the MahabharataWar, all were awaiting Krishna’s

return to Dwarka. Everyone was ready to welcome Him. Like a small child waiting for its

mother or the calf eagerly waiting the mother cow’s return, all excitedly waited fo

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    Krishna. All were yearning, suffering unbearable pangs of separation from Him. It was

on this page that Swami wrote ‘Sai Krishna Leela.

Swami wrote in this way to show that He will come back. After the Mahabharata

Warended,the people of Dwarka waited for Krishna'sreturn. All were yearning for

Him. Swami says that I am also yearning for His return. Yet, it is not only I who is

yearning, but the entire world expects Him to return. All Swami’s devotees from the

world over arewaiting. It is declared in both my and Swami’s nadisthat He will come

again. We are all waiting with full faith. I am crying each moment, minute to minute.

That was Mahabharata War;this is Kali Yuga War. Swami left His body taking

the sins of all in the world on His body. I am also suffering having accepted the sins of

all in the world. Each moment I am crying, melting and awaiting His arrival. I am like

thenewbornbaby crying for its mother. Thus, my body is affected more. Swami said

that He would write. Then on the page that tellshowall of DwarkaawaitedKrishna’s

return, Swami wrote, ‘Sai Krishna Leela. We can only wonder at God’somniscience.

Now let us see the eyes, which Swami drew and what was written on that page.

There it tells that Krishna’s form appearedsimultaneouslyto each one of the 1,108

gopis. If He had only gone to the house of onegopi, jealousy would have arisen, thus, He

entered all housesat the same time. This shows that God is common for all. God is in all

and isall pervasive.

Here, it tells of the difference between Radha and the gopis. All the gopis felt that

Krishna belonged to them alone and not to others. This shows their narrow vision. Yet,

Radha was different and did not think in this way. She thought that Brindavan and

Govinda were common for all. She realized that the same divinity present in her was

present in all. This was Radha’s point of view. When I asked about my eyesight, Swami

used this as a comparison. I am also like Radha. I see God in all in each one and

everything. My penance is for all to experience Swami as I do. This is the only reason for

my penance. This comes as the New Creation. Here, Swami and I will be ineveryone and

everything, all places at all time. We will enter alland live together throughout the

Creation.

Jai Sai Ram

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