In thechapter,I wrote yesterday, Swami asked me why I always think in a
negative
way and that I should think positively.
I then wrote explaining why.From my
youngage,I have written aself-examinationdiary each day. I taught this habit to my
children. I havealsoasked those in theashramto write a self-examination diary.I
performed
thisself-examinationand prayed toGod withtears. This is
my main work. All
others are functioningcenteredon the ‘I and mine’. I have no ‘i’, all is only Swami.
I have noself-confidence. It is only if I have'i', will self-confidence come to me. Yet, I always
have one fearthat ifI do something wrong Swami will leave me.
This is my fear. I want God.Thisis my unquenchable thirst. We are born here to transform
ourselves; otherwise,we will be born again and again.