Thought for the day
One cannot merge in the ocean of Brahman until ignoranceand desires are left behind

From the book Prema Sai Avatar Part III - Sai Digest

White Sari Right Sari!

The 27^th May is the anniversary of our marriage. It was on this day in 2001 that Swami blessed the red stone Mangalya with His physical touch in Brindavan, Whitefield. It was Swami Himself who told me make it and bring it to Whitefield for His blessing. Every year Swami blesses a new sacred thread, sari and toe rings.

Kodaikanal

We asked permission to bring a sari into darshan for Swami to bless. It was a mango colour sari, new yellow thread and toe rings. SV sat in the second row, but Swami did not bless the items.

12/04/2006

Vasantha: Swami, why didn’t You bless my sari?

Swami: You change the sari. Bring the white sari. I will bless it.

Vasantha: Swami, that sari is for the inauguration of the Stupi. The mango colour sari is for 27^th May.

Swami: No, this sari is for May 27^th. All will be good this time. Nothing will happen to either of us. We will celebrate our marriage day in bliss. We will be happy.

Vasantha: Really, tell me Swami.

Swami: Really! We will be happy. Special events will happen on that day, so you change this sari.

Vasantha: Swami, I will do what You say. Please bless the marriage of Shanthini’s daughter.

Swami: Yes, all will go on well.

End of Meditation

Shanthini from London sent me her daughter’s marriage invitation and asked me to pray to Swami. She said that Swami had taken an invitation from her in darshan.

As Swami instructed, I put the mango coloured sari away and took out the white sari Marthe had given me for the Stupi inauguration. As it was Tamil New Year and the Kerala festival of Vishu, there were heavy crowds for two days; it was not possible for us to take the sari, mangala sutra and toe rings into darshan. The next day Swami did not come for darshan. For the next two days I was unwell and did not go for darshan. I cried a lot. I was feeling very bad that I was not able to go to darshan.

17/04/06

Today is the anniversary of the day I merged with Swami in Vashista cave in 2002. When we were reminiscing about this, I suddenly remembered that at that time SV had prepared a wedding invitation card, to celebrate Swami’s and my merger in the Vashista cave. I thought; let us prepare an invitation now. All agreed. I began to make an invitation immediately. I took Shantini’s daughter marriage invitation and used it as a model. The ashramites said that we will print it out on the computer. Shanthini daughter’s marriage day was May 28^th 2006; Eddy changed it to May 27.

“Oh! It is Sunday, we should make it Saturday!” I said, “But marriages are not performed on Saturday’s! But this is not an ordinary marriage. It is a marriage of Sathya and Prema for the Sathya Yuga.” Saying this I changed it to Saturday. I drew Stupi on the front of the card and wrote, ‘Reception 2^nd September 2006’, near the drawing of the Stupi – this was the inauguration day of Mukthi Stupi. In Shanthini’s invitation it was written ‘avoid presents’, at the bottom we changed it to ‘avoid Siddhis and posts’.

WEDDING INVITATION

Mr. &Mrs. V. Raju      and     Mr. & Mrs. Madurakavi             request the pleasure of the company of                   the 14 worlds      their son                 their daughter      Sathyam                  Prema                  ON              Saturday the 27th May 2006              Between 4 A.M. & 6 A.M.               At Brindavan Temple. Reception: Vaikunta House on September 2, 2006      Avoids Siddhis and Posts please.       Your presence will grant you Liberation Right Here Right Now.

            Picture of the card.

Amar went to print the card on the computer and then with Dr Varma to darshan. They came home late in the evening and told that Swami had given a discourse. He talked about,

‘Mother, Father, Guru, God’. They also said that while talking about guru Swami talked about Madurakavi Alwar, (the great Tamil saint who is the father of Andal. Swami told me that my father is an aspect of him.)

Swami also told how people consult pundits when they want to find a good day for marriage. But they are money minded and give dates only according to what is convenient to them. Swami added, “You can fix a day which you feel correct!”

Swami also spoke about Abhimanyu and Subhadra. Amar then went to print the invitation and came late at night. I said, “Swami has talked about Madurakavi Alwar and aslo answered our doubt about fixing the day of the ‘marriage’ on Saturday.” We talked happily.

            We pasted the marriage invitation that Amar had printed in the inside of Shantini’s daughter’s marriage card. The front page had been changed already. Thus a beautiful invitation card was prepared. All of us were very happy. We kept it on Swami’s padukas and slept.

18.04.2006 Tuesday

Vasantha: Swami, today you should bless the sari and other things. Please take the invitation card.

Swami: I will bless by touching.

 It had been two days since I had gone to darshan. We left at 7.30a.m.

The darshan area is very crowded. Swami comes early at 8 o’clock, before tokens are given. All are sent in quickly. We do not get a place inside. We sit in rows along the path that goes up to the darshan area. They tell us Swami will come down the driveway and give us darshan. Ladies sit one side of the driveway and gents on the other. Swami gives darshan, to all but does not come down the driveway. All wait with great expectation, but Swami does not come; He goes back to the veranda and sits for bhajan. We cannot see Him. Swami came in His chair, but we do not see Him. I burst out crying. What mistake did I do? Why He didn’t come? All Sevadals tell, ‘Swami came down the driveway for the last two days…’ What mistake did I commit? I cry. A small space is available and I am told to go and sit inside, but I cannot see Swami.

Finally we stand up and can see Swami. Swami is sitting on His chair in front of all. I see Him clearly, to my hearts content. I say, ‘It is enough Swami’. After aarti all leave.

As we walked out of darshan, Geetha, I and Mrs Varma discussed, “The men’s side was also crowded, what would they have done? How could Swami bless the items with such a crowd? What about the wedding invitation, did Swami take it?”

Fred, Eddy, Amar and Dr Varma were waiting for us. They told, “Swami blessed all things, touching with His divine hand and took the invitation card!” All were blissfully happy. Everyone described it in their own way. It was wonderful to listen to.

Fred told that he got a place in one corner, in the third row and sat near the security. He took the sari out of the cover, placed the sacred yellow thread, toe rings and invitation on top. Swami came in His chair, stopped in front of Fred and called him. Fred knelt down and stretched his hands. Swami blessed all with His hands, touching Fred’s hand! Swami also took the invitation card. All is Swami’s master plan. Before Swami came all were inside the darshan area. All rushed in a hurry to search for a place to sit. Many women were not able to go inside and had to sit on the driveway by the gate.

Eddy said, “Amma! Today is Tuesday, mangala day, like Hanuman showing Mother Sita’s Shudamani to Rama in Ashokavana, Fred showed your sari, mangala sutra and toe rings to Swami. It is on this day that Hanuman first saw Mother Sita. So this is the right day for Swami to bless your things.”

We lovingly call Fred, Hanuman. He performs all actions effortlessly and skilfully. Like him, all are working as messengers between me and Swami. They wait for Swami’s darshan from early morning till 10.30 a.m. At 12 pm they start queuing for evening darshan. They deliver all my letters to Swami. They do not eat properly and all make so much effort to give my letters to Swami. They do not have any personal desires. They are happy to see me and Swami together. They know my each and every feeling because they live with me in ashram. They know how I cry and yearn for Swami. They work so hard only to make me happy. To acknowledge their sacrifice, Swami takes letters from them and blesses all.

In the morning I took my bath and wore the white sari with embroidery. Eddy bought the sari for me for Shivarathri in Puttaparthi. I said to Swami, “I will come for darshan wearing the white sari bought for me by our younger son, our elder son Fred will bring a white sari for our marriage day. Please bless!”

I prayed in this way and told them, “Today Swami will definitely bless with His divine touch.” All happened exactly as I said!

Swami was already coming down on the slope when they entered for darshan and looked at them. They had to run and sit in the last place. Swami saw them there and came to bless the sari. This is Swami’s master plan.

We go for darshan in the evening and sit outside in a good place in front of the first door. Swami comes at 4.45 pm and gives a discourse.

In His speech Swami talks about the marriage of Rama and Sita, vividly describing the wedding scenes, He becomes emotional. He tells how all who witness the wedding attain liberation. I am very happy as I had written on the card that Swami had accepted in the morning, ‘All those who attend our wedding on the 27^th of May will be blessed with liberation’. Swami then describes how Mother Sita sends her ring to Rama through the messenger Hanuman. It is a diamond ring with fourteen stones, representing the fourteen worlds! I had written in the card, ‘Invitation to the fourteen worlds!’ Later we find out that Swami materialised the ring for all to see and said that Sita had become very lean and so the ring no longer fitted her…at this moment Swami placed the ring on His finger and began to cry…all are transported back to Treta Yuga.

I am very happy that Swami openly accepted the invitation through the words of His speech. After His discourse Swami comes outside and blesses all.

We return home happily discussing Swami’s discourse. All are blissful and thankful for Swami’s wonderful words that bless May 27^th marriage and the reception on 2^nd September, the inauguration day of the Stupi.

Thought for the day

The power of unfulfilled desire in man is the root cause for his bondage 

Miracle Maya Part 2

Chapter 3

VibrationSpecialist

Once a woman, who isagood devotee came to stay in Mukthi Nilayam. From the moment she arrived, she pleaded with me to forgive her.

I asked, “For what reason?” She said, “I was Dasaratha in my previous birth. At that time,you were Sita.I sent you to the forest.” I told her I was not aware that I was Sita, butshe continued tellingthe samestoryuntil she left the ashram.After she had gone, all in the ashram talked about this and had a good laugh. Sometime later, we went to Puttaparthi forSwami’s birthday. On the day of AkhandaBhajan, we got first token and sat in the third row. The same woman came and sat next to me.

She asked, “Do you know who you are?”

I said, “I don’t know.”

She said,“I know who you are... you are Krishna’s wife.”

She then asked, “Do you know who I am?”

I replied that I did not know.

She then said, “I am also one of Krishna’swives. This is why we are sitting together. I can feel your vibration. Can you feel my vibration?”

I replied, “I don’t know how to feelvibrations.”

The woman continued talking. I coulddo nothingbut sit beside her and listen to her foolish prattle. Though bhajan was going on, she would not stoptalking.

The next day some devotees came to our room for meditation. One of them told me thatthis same woman had told them that she was the Virgin Mary in a past life.They were concerned whether this woman had some sort ofmental disease. First, she said that she was Dasaratha, then one of Krishna’s wives and now,she is saying that she is the Virgin Mary.She told me that both of us were the wives of Krishna and asked, “Do you feel the vibrations?” I thought, ‘Does Krishna’s wife have special vibrations?’

Doctors do tests to see whether you have typhoid or a viral infection. In the same way, this woman is telling casually, “You have Krishna’s wife vibration, you have Rama’s wife vibration, I have Virgin Mary’s vibration.”

This woman is a Vibration Specialist! How does she know about the different vibrations? Yes, some can feel vibrations. I wrote about this and about vibrations in my books. Still, how can this woman know the vibration of Krishna’s wife? What can I say about her? Does she have a mental disorder? Why is she roaming here and there telling everyone she was Dasaratha, Krishna’s wife or the Virgin Mary in a previous birth? Why should one bother about who they were in a previous birth? It is better to ask yourself, ‘Who am I and why am I born?’

You have the great good fortune of living in the place where the Poorna Avatar resides. Why are you wasting precious time? We cannot become Krishna’s wife by mere talk. We must do penance, discipline ourselves, control the five senses, do austerities and transform ourselves. Days are reducing fast. We should redeem ourselves from the cycle of birth and death.

Swami told me that I was Radha, Sita, Mahalakshmi and Durga,butI refused to Accept them, saying they were all mere posts. I told Swami I did not want these posts; I wanted only Him. I asked only for God. Do not let these distractions carry you away. Her own desires and lust have made her into a 'Vibration Specialist'. So be vigilant. Aim only at attaining God.

I was born only to attain God. We have not obtained this precious human birth to be called Radha, Sita or Rukmini. This birth has been given for us to discover, ‘I am Atma’. If we realize without any doubt that we are the Atma, we will not be born again. We are not here to discover that we were Radha or Sita. Swami says that we should know who we are. He says, ‘I am God, you are also God’. This human birth is given to realize this. Through penance, one can come to understand that they truly are God. The woman told me in darshan, “You are Krishna’s wife. I am also Krishna’s wife. This is why we are sitting together.” Can we become the wives of Krishna by sitting side by side? By doing penance, we can attain the vision of the Indwelling Lord. One can get the vision of God only from within, not outside.

Vibrations are not a plaything. What are we going to achieve by finding out different vibrations? How is this going to bring us relief from the troubles of life? Instead, we should contemplate: who is husband, who is wife, who is child, who is my relation? Ask yourself, ‘What will happen if I die tomorrow? I should free myself from all attachment’.

Let us not waste this human birth in vain talk. Is it enough if you live in Puttaparthi? Is it enough if you sit in God’s presence? Will it give you liberation? Will a fish get liberation just because it lives in the Ganges? It is said that one gets liberation by bathing in the Ganges. Fish live in the Ganges are they liberated? In the same way, can one attain liberation by merely living in Puttaparthi? One should do sadhana. This woman, who claims to know the vibrations of others, is not able to know Swami’s vibrations. If she perceives and absorbs Swami’s vibrations, she can become God. This Poorna Avatar has come on earth to redeem us from the cycle of birth and death. Other than Him, there is none to show us the path and grant liberation. Make use of this rare good fortune of living near the Avatar. Make an effort to attain God and to attain Truth.

Thought for the day
In the super causal world one merges with Truth, God.

From the book Liberation Here Itself Right Now Pt II

THE VEDA OF VEDAMATHA

The supreme knowledge from the mother of knowledge

Whenever Dharma (righteousness) is endangered, Lord Sri Madhava takes an Avatar (human form) and bestows spiritual enlightenment. Swami said, “All the previous Avatars came with a single mission. Lord Vamana came to correct King Bali and Lord Tirvikrama came for a similar purpose. Sri Rama came to destroy evil forces. Sri Krishna came to again exterminate the asuras (demons) and to destroy the wicked among kings to establish righteousness. In this way, only one task was carried out by these Avatars.  But now, this book creates a revolution through spirituality in the entire world. Reading this book will create a spiritual thirst. Those who read it will experience a new awakening in their minds that will create a desire to reach the pinnacle of spirituality. This is a sacred task. ”

 When India was under foreign rule, great leaders were born to light the flame of freedom in every heart. The thirst for independence started raging and the country was liberated. This is the freedom for the country. But, was it real freedom? The liberation of the soul from the shackles of samsara (mundane life) is THE Real freedom. Liberation. This Avatar has come to show us the way.

Even though the country (India) is free, if there is no freedom for the individual soul, what is the use? Spiritual aspiration must be aroused in every one of us; everyone must attain spiritual freedom. Human values must flourish everywhere. All places must be flooded with Sathya (truth). The glory of the Almighty must be sung everywhere. His powers and the glory of His name should spread everywhere.

Swami said, “You did penance with a burning desire in your heart for liberation; so you are able to create that  thirst in every heart. Everyone who reads your book would experience it. They will cherish it as a treasure. In today’s world (fraught with so many maladies), this is the new text of the Veda (Supreme Knowledge).” 

Thought for the day
In the causal world, one is at the frontier of Truth

From the book Ananda Sutra

Love is God

17^th July 2008 Evening Meditation

Vasantha: Swami, why did I ask You to give back my ‘i’? I want only You.

Swami: Whatever you write is correct. I will give you the ruling power. All will come

under your command.

Vasantha: Swami, I do not want all these things. I do not want to destroy the world.

Swami: This is not destruction. You said that you will destroy the world with your flood of Prema. Prema will never destroy the world; it will only destroy the evil in it. Prema will then fill everywhere.

Vasantha: Swami, is it all true? Is it not correct what I wrote?

Swami: Whatever you write is correct. I will give you the power… you write this.

End of Meditation

If I were to write negatively about something, Swami changes it and makes me look at it positively. I wrote Him a letter saying, ‘Give back my ‘i’. I said in it that if I command, the Chitravathi will flood and destroy the world. Swami now says that the Chitravathi is the Prema river. Prema will never destroy the world; it can only destroy the evil forces in it.

Earlier I wrote in the chapter, ‘Prema itself is Pralaya’, that the world cannot bear the  force of our Prema.  Swami said, "It is not the right time, the world must mature. When the time comes, Prema will not destroy the people, but the evil forces in the world. Then alone Prema can fill everywhere.”

These mountain ranges are the peaks of wisdom. These peaks surround me. It shows the Brahman state which none can attain. Even if one is in the Brahman state, Prema is required. Brahman rules the world. However, Prema is God. God is Prema.

God is the Supreme Absolute, the unseen force that flows beneath Him is Prema. The high peaks that surround me and the Prema river flowing below shows this. God’s ruling power is everywhere. In the same way, Prema is all pervading. The pure Prema focused on God alone, becomes God. This proves that God is Love, and Love is God. Only when I realize my powers, will I have I. I am asking Swami to give back my ‘i’. Only if I have an ‘i’ will wisdom function.

18^th July 2008 Morning Meditation

Vasantha: Swami, the ruling power You want to give to me, give to someone else. Your feet are enough. If Your feet are placed on one side of a scale and the ruling power of the world on the other, it will not equal Your feet. I do not want it. Please give me Your feet. It is enough for me.

Swami: Do not cry. What is ruling power? It is the ability to control and command all. You compared the mountains with the peaks of wisdom. The walls that surround you are wisdom’s fort. The roof is Truth. Prema is the river. What lies in between is not Ashokavana, but the Queen's chamber. None can enter. Nobody can reach this peak.  Here you feel secure, without fear. This is why I called you to Puttaparthi, asking you to stay. Where there is fear, the power to control and command cannot function.  For these powers are to function, there must be fearlessness.

End of Meditation

Swami told that ruling power is the ability to control and command anything.

Though I attained the Brahman state, fear remains. As I do not have an ‘i’, I am always in fear. When there is fear no power can function.

Why did fear come? From where has it come from? It comes from feelings of insecurity. Here in Puttaparthi, I have Swami's nearness and so I feel protected. This is why Swami said "Stay in Puttaparthi for seven days.”

My mind always thinks, 'Can I go to Swami? Will anyone say anything to me?’ It is in this way that fear remains with me. As I have no ‘i’, I cannot feel my state, so the fear is present.

One who has attained the Brahman state does not remain in physical the body. I however remain in the body, with the desire to merge in Swami’s physical form. Therefore there is fear. Here, I am near to Swami and so have feelings of freedom. I am surrounded by walls of wisdom. The roof is Truth.  Flowing below is the Prema river. In the middle of this is Ashokavana. Swami said, "It is not Ashokavana, but the Queen’s chamber.” Here I there is no fear, I feel secure.  In Puttaparthi, Swami has proved God is love. He has shown that God is verily the embodiment of Love. My life proves that Love is God. It reveals how Prema becomes God. As all know that God is love, when they see Swami they derive bliss.

As Swami is showing that He is God, all cannot move freely with Him and get what they want. Swami has an organization with lays down rules and regulations. No one can go near Him without He Himself calling. This is God is love.

If Prema becomes God how would it be? The love of a devotee, which is focused on God expands and expands to become God.  In Puttaparthi, God is showing His love. Here love is showing God. There we see God's Prema. Here Prema is showing God. Here Prema had no rules and regulations, no organization, no security. Whoever comes, they will experience as much as they desire. This Prema shows that wherever one looks, God is there. I proved this through my life, that love is God. Here only Prema is God. It has no name and form. The world creates a name and form for God. Then it tries to contain this God inside a name and form. For that name and form God the world create rules and regulations.  Here the Prema has no name and form, this Prema is not contained in anything. It fills itself throughout the entire world. Here Prema has no ‘i’. When ‘i’ is there, then there is name and form. If there is no ‘i’ there is no name and form.

‘God is love’, all understand.

‘Love is God’, not all understand. In order to show this state to the world, the mischievous Lord stole my ‘i’. No, no, He did not steal it. When God state came to this ‘i’, I cried, "I do not want it, you take it away.”  I then myself offered the ‘i’ to Him. Now there is no ‘i’, so there is freedom for Prema to fill everywhere. Any one who wants can experience this Prema and derive bliss.

Who can limit the infinite space? Who can place conditions on the boundless ocean? Who can contain the ever free air in a body sac? In the same way, the all-pervasive Prema has no rules or regulations. God is love. He is creating an illusion, which makes people think that he can be contained in this small form. This is God is Love.

Love is God, it cannot be contained anywhere.  Swami always preaches God is love, God is love, He says Prema Swarupalara, embodiments of love.

Love is God, Swami demonstrates through me.

God is love, is preaching.

Love is God, is practicing.

The hearts of those who read these truths are touched; they realize and feel the truth and it gives them bliss. My truth gives them the same bliss that they would get from seeing Swami.

An example. Galatia a devotee from Greece heard about me and began to read my books. The first book touched her heart and made her know Truth. She then contacted me by phone and we spoke many times. She read all my books and spoke about me to many people in Greece. On her first visit to the ashram she came with 16 devotees.

The group donated a lot of money toward the Stupi’s construction. They have translated my books into Greek and phone me daily.

As I am mad for Swami, they are mad for me. In Mukthi Nilayam Galatia's and Machi's family are very important, visiting the Ashram every few months.

They experience my nearness to me, which is not available from Swami. Every time they come here they take my pillow cases, the mattress, old saris, kerchiefs, whatever I have used they want. They are living only for me. They come from ordinary families. Whatever money they earn they spend to come and see me. They say, “Seeing you, we are blissful. We are living only for you, it is bliss. We spend for you, it is bliss.” This is not a worldly attachment or connection. It is not worldly happiness. It is the bliss that comes from finding Truth. The Truth of my writing gives them bliss. It cannot be explained in words. It can only be felt through sacrifice. This year they performed many austerities for Swami and I to meet on May 27th. During the yagnas they performed they wrote many letters to Devas and offered them in the fire. Swami also blessed their efforts by showering their letters with vibhuti. He showed many proofs in pictures from the yagna.

They took the mattress which I had used for 6 years back to Greece with them.  They chanted mantra, performed yagna and did abhishekam to the mattress. Swami blessed their devotion by putting vibhuti all over the top of the mattress. As I always meditate and lie on this mattress, they have full faith that Swami’s and my feelings are there. For this faith more truth is revealed to them. To others may seem like madness, for them its gives bliss. Those who realise my truth acquire bliss from the small things that I have used. They take saftey pins, hair pins; Truth reveals itself in everything and gives them bliss. This proves how Prema is revealing Truth. When they hear my voice on the phone, they become blissful. In Puttaparthi I told them, "You go and see Swami." They said, "We see Swami in your eyes. We see Swami in your form." The same is written in the Suka nadi. Whoever sees my eyes realises that they are Swami’s eyes. This is proof for what Sage Suka had said in the naadi.

I am ever in thoughts of Swami, without even a fraction of a second’s break. This Prema makes my body like Swami's. Swami has taken away my ‘i’ and filled His Truth in me. Whatever bliss one gets seeing Swami, the same bliss will come seeing me.  They realise my truth and so derive bliss. They want to take the water which I have drunk back to Greece.

Once I had asked Swami, "Please give the water from Your tumbler.” A devotee from Puttaparthi then sent half a spoon of water from a cup Swami had drunk from in a small vial. I added this to a tumbler of water and shared with all. This all seems like madness. Prema does not consider this. This Prema desires to connect itself in any way to the one it loves.  These small actions give much happiness. In the same way I ask Swami for many small things, they too ask me. These examples show the bliss that Truth gives. 

Every time they come to my room in Sai Gouri, they bring something. I told them, “If you keep bringing me things, we will have to hire a van for our luggage!” They said, "What we do, whatever we see, we think ‘This is for Amma, that is for Amma’, and buy." Towels, kerchiefs, bed sheets, pens, ink bottles, ink fillers... love wants to give, give, give. How much money have they given to the ashram? How much they are spending on tickets to come and go! None of this matters to them. This is all love is God. This love always want to give, it is never selfish. They only think to give to God. It is not based on any worldly matters, it is spiritual. By giving these small things to God, they derive bliss; the permanence of the relationship is established. However, in worldly life, when something is given to another, there is expectation to receive something in return. This is reveals the impermanence of the relationship. This is the difference between God and the world.

Thought for the day

The subtle world is the journey towards Truth. 

From the book Ananda Sutra

                                                    Ananda

After completing the book, ‘Prema sutra’, I could not do anything. I had no interest to read or write. We watched a video of Swami, I had no interest seeing this either.

11^th July 2008 Evening Meditation

Vasantha: Swami, I have no interest in anything, nothing is touching my mind. All

ask me to write about ‘Ananda’. I have no ananda, how can I write about it?

Swami:     All in the world experience bliss, but it is not real. Real bliss is only within. Without God, there is no ananda in anything. You desire ananda directly from My physical form. This is for New creation. You want ananda physically from Me, so the Creation will come physically.

End of meditation

We think that ananda comes from outside. We think that it comes from husband, wife, children, family, money, house, car, status etc. We run after them. However this bliss only lasts for a few days, it is not permanent.

God is unseen. But, we can see the Creation. Therefore, we think that the bliss comes from what is seen outside. This is not so. We can only obtain bliss from inside, God is inside. This bliss is reflected outside and so we think the external objects give bliss. Therefore we suffer in the cycle of birth and death. Truly bliss is within. It is Atma Ananda, the bliss of the Self. Atma is verily God, the Indweller. God is imperishable and immortal. Worldly objects are perishable. Therefore, you should search for God inside. Only then, you will find the real Ananda that is within.

I desire God’s physical nearness. I am not satisfied with any other bliss. I think that I will only get ananda in God’s physical presence. Why do I have these different feelings? It is because I want to create a new world. The desire for God’s nearness is giving New creation.

12^th July 2008 Morning meditation

Vasantha:     Swami, please tell something about ananda.

Swami:          Man always searches for ananda outside. After he realises that he cannot get it from outside, he searches within.  Knowing about God, wisdom comes.  This wisdom is Ananda. You desire My physical nearness. You want to experience ananda, in God’s physical nearness only. This is why you are able to show God in all creation. Real ananda is when we see the unseen God within. You received ananda from the Avatar. You then showed that God is in everything that is seen.

Vasantha:     Very good Swami. Now I will write.

Man searches for bliss in the outside world. In time, he grows weary realising the bliss that he experienced outside is not real. He then begins to search within. After great effort and sadhana, he attains wisdom.  He searches and searches for wisdom and finally wisdom dawns. This wisdom is bliss, ananda. Our efforts to search for Truth are penance. It is through this penance that we acquire wisdom and it is through this wisdom that we experience bliss. We must search for bliss inside. There is no use searching outside.

From my birth, I have only searched for God not wanting anything outside. Due to this, I attained God. He began to speak with me inside, in meditation.  I acquired much wisdom, which He asked me to write as books. I poured this wisdom into some forty books. Yet, what is the use? I still have no ananda.  Anyone who writes such wisdom would leave their body and merge with God in a state of bliss.  Why do I alone remain here? I desire the Avatar’s nearness. This wisdom must become Anubhava jnana, wisdom born through experience. Only If I attain Swami’s darshan, sparshan and sambhashan will the New creation dawn. Only when I receive bliss from the physical Swami, will the creation become complete.

Time after time, age after age, we have been taught that one acquires ananda from the unseen God and that the creation is perishable.

The creation we see with our physical eyes has also come from God.  Why do we think that it is different from God? Why do we not get the same ananda from creation that we get from God? This has been my life’s research. I proved through my life that God is in every atom of creation. The unseen God and the creation that is seen are one and the same. Both are God.  We must derive the same bliss from creation as from God. Husband, wife, child, parents, relationships, why do we push it all away as Maya? They are also God. There is no Maya in this world. Creation is not Maya, everything is God mayam.  Everywhere is God, everyone is God and whatever we see is God. We must derive bliss from all. This is Sathya yuga. The Prema Avatar’s family life proves this.

The wisdom and Truth that I acquire through sadhana will take the form of experience. If I have Swami’s darshan, sparshan and sambhashan all will be well. The ananda this one Vasantha enjoys, the Vasanthamayam creation will also.

I am now changing that which has been taught time after time, age after age. I see God in all creation and so am very happy. Due to this I have learnt many lessons. I now become the Creation to show to all the Omnipresent God that I see. I saw God in Creation and was blissful. Now, at the time when the task is ending, I am yearning for Swami’s nearness. Where is the ananda that I experienced before? It lies hidden, awaiting the final stage.

In my young age, I wrote one poem to Kanha.

Kanha, inside or outside?

Where to look?

In eyes? In heart?

Or in the song I sing?

Is the bliss outside or within the heart?

In feelings or life breath?

Or in merging thoughts?

Is love in the heart or in a melting world?

Is it in mind? Is it the sweetness?

Or is He Time and Space?

I wrote thousands of songs on Krishna and Swami. I wrote thinking of Krishna before I knew Swami. Is Kanha inside or outside in a world we see with our eyes?  Where is He? Is He in our eyes? Or is He in our heart? Is He in my songs? Where is Kanha? He is everywhere, inside and outside. Is this bliss outside or is it in my heart? Is it in my feelings? Or is it in my life breath? Is this bliss in the thoughts that have merged in Him?

This bliss is inside and outside. It is in feelings, life breath and thoughts of merging.  All is bliss.

Is our Prema in my heart? Or is it in this melting world?

The love is not only in the heart, but also in the world where we melt and merge. It is in our mind and sweetness. It is in the Time and Space.

Kanha is everywhere. Bliss or joy is everywhere. Love is everywhere.  God, Prema and Ananda are the same. It is inside and outside. It is in Time. My life is showing this. 

How did this simple village girl write this poem? It was due to the experience of seeing God, love and bliss as one.

I am showing this as New creation.  God, love and bliss are everywhere, all pervading. It is inside and outside of man. Whenever you see God, you derive bliss and love. You will get the same bliss and love when you see the Creation. Do not push anything away saying it is Maya. Whatever happens, accept and experience as it is.